Still displaced from the face of an occurrence in society

Tryna find the whys between the lies that hide “me”

The me that smiles through the pain no matter what it is

The me that laughs when I should be crying no matter how I really feel

The me that is a liar to myself and everyone around

Because most of my feelings I leave inside of me no where to be found

Stuffed in the back of my huge emotional chest

There lies the root to my unhappiness

Case of the confused, lost, frustrated, angry and sad girl you see

But on the outside I will never let that be

Cuz my constant cries are no ones business but my own

So of course I will never let all of that be shown

I will just keep it in the shadows and locked up in the chest

Until someone proves to me the true meaning of happiness

My true meaning of happiness- Someone to share it with…………

Miami oh Miami :)

Deep Thought

Sometimey, supposedly highly, dont take this the wrong way
The position of attention will surely not stay 
To admire and acquire what I know and see
And supposedly end up happy? 
No, the fix em system, is not the way it works
Its either there or not, and sometimes it hurts
Life isnt worth living if you cant feel alive 
Surprise to awaken to the iminent demise
Of everything you thought to be true
Old new borrowed blue is now just a phase 
In the maze of something bigger than the apple of your eye
Trying to question how can I try or how would I?
No its too late to escape the fate that has been taking place 
For years its been coming waiting for its time 
To destroy everything that made sense in life
Now ideologies are lost trying to find new beliefs 
All because one crucial partnership is now deceased

I wish that one day you could walk in my shoes 
See what I see and do what I do 
Feel what I feel and understand my past 
See why I try so hard to make things last 
If you were to live in my life for just one day 
U would understand why I come off a certain way 
Why I care so much for those that care for me 
And how I care for others too praying that one day they will be free, to see the big heart god gave me. 
How I always give people a chance 
And dont leave them out to dry without giving a second glance 
You’ll understand why I love so hard 
And dont try to get back at those who left me scarred 
You’ll see that through time and time again I’ve been put to the test 
By selfish people who didnt recognize my greatness 
But I haven’t let that stop me despite how it may seem 
I hold close and tight to achieving my dream 
To be an utter and complete success 
And make only forward progress 
To stay focused strong determined and driven 
And fulfill the passion that I have been given 
To be me, To know me, To walk in my shoes 

Is when you truly understand the person you claimed you already knew.

To release what was and never will be 
To let some peace come in finally 
To understand that this is how it is and things never will change 
To finally embrace and accept these growing pains 
I have tried for so long but now I have to let it go 
Because I cant let it hold me back anymore 
So this is my ode to you, Im letting you go free 
For no longer can you stay apart of me 
I have to cut it off, this is the end 
No longer can these circles continue to spin 
In its exit part of me it takes 
But trust never again will I make that mistake 


Peace and Blessings. 


Thanks for the Epiphany Rose. 

Im tired frustrated with everything including you 

Always saying it’ll get better and you’ll fix it but do you?

And Im stuck in a shell where no one can hear me cry

But that doesn’t matter cuz its still me thats feeling the pain

And your decision-making is taking us through & through

But its hard to see the future living in this state

The pressure has gotten to me and I dont know how

I wanna believe that you’ll fix the problem

But its kinda hard when you are the cause 

<Im done your out you’ve been dismissed>And please understand you won’t be missed>Yourwack, In 
fact, you held me back>Because of self deception, I put up with your smack>But when I woke up from 
your spell, off a cliff is where you fell, outta my mind, my psyche for a second I thought I might be in 
LOVE?>But naw>because true love shouldn’t feel so much like a treacherous fall>But it did because of
you>Your perception of perfection personified that truth, so I say good riddance to you and your 
issues>You’ve been X’d once had me vexed but now I’ve been blessed to see>That me being pulled into 
your bull bettered me>You’ve been erased, displaced, don’t care for your face Im through>What used 
to be has been gone and when it left it robbed you of U> 




Signed 
~True Curly Sue~

Im running from you who I don’t want to be
Trying to escape that fate or possibility
Although I know its inevitable I still have to try
From becoming the person that alot of times I despise
Or do I fear that becoming him will seal an eminent fate
Of pushing people away behavior that you will never change
Ending up only with others either loving you or hating it.
It as in your personality, “I know everything because I do”
And it doesn’t matter what you say Im above you
The existence of this as the only thing I know
People tell me Im just like him and I get a feeling of woe
Why can’t I just be me, I want no part of anything else.
But I guess trying to stop it is essentially running from myself.

I was watching Diary of a Mad Black Woman and I just decided to give my take on the matter. Enjoy. 


I dont believe in fairy-tales because they dont exist
Some people have different stories but to me it just doesn’t make sense. 
Prince charming coming on a horse to save the day
Implying that you by yourself could not have made a way
Someone so perfect and better than they seem
Equating a mirror image of your best dream
Really? Excellence to the highest and excuse my critical hue
But how can something that right really be true 
No one is flawless and we all make mistakes
And this wonderful ideal sounds nice but in the end is still fake.
Movies and television have made the fantasy seem sound
But when you walk down the street these faultless beings are no where to be found
Not saying that there are no caring people because we know they exist 
We just pass them by all the time because they are not the obvious



~Always be mindful of whose presence you host, what you may have needed all along could have been right under your nose, your fairy-tale~